why should i care when there is barely nothing to care about.
i can do i t on my own. and i promise you this...i will!

i dont want anything from you knowing that i have to pay you back.
i rather do it on my own and pay myself back.
thats the way you think right?
well so will i. i should probably go on my way and do it on my own now.
thanx.

oh gawd. i'm going out of my mind. it isnt right anymore. i'm doing it again. really again? i'm self destructive they say. ohhhh how true can they ever be.
i'm running? hiding? idk. i'm so afraid that i'm not ready for this all my life crap. i dont have a goal in mind. do i need one? i'm okay with my life and then suddenly i'm not. i'm not okay with my life. i'm not satisfied and then i feel like i want another escape. this escape isnt enough. its not right anymore. i dont want to go back and i dont want go on the way i'm going.
i'm losing it again arent i?
i'm going to end up ruining you. so i'm gonna say sorry for it now.
sorry.

first.

going to scream and shout it here.