I grew up thinking I would never change my mind or ruin my faith. I was raised a Christian & that life was engrained in me. Only after so many years was I able to wash most of the wine that permanently stained my skin. I thought my faith would help me understand the world that surrounded me but it only kept me inside a box. I felt like all these questions that were circling my head could only truly be answered but the answers were beyond the box. When I finally decided to stop praying, I knew that i was on a different adventure. I was on a mission to find out the truth. & truthfully, Christianity was not the answer for me. Those people are missing out so much. So much truth out here in the "secular" world but they are fed lies. The truth & guide is within yourself, call it Jesus, call it your conscience, call it whatever, but know that is the only thing that can lead you to the truth. It took me awhile to figure it out but I had to feel in order to know that the world is not black & white but a mixture of different grays. I know nothing, & the little I know, is enough to suffice my craving for now.
