No one owes you anything.

Lately I've been thinking about the things I've done in my past. More about the things I've done for people in my past life. So willingly to just open the palm of my hand & lend every bit of my soul to them. Now I sit here feeling guilty at feeling this sort of way. Feeling as if I should be owed something back for all that I've done for them. Selfish of me, I know. I just hate myself for allowing people to walk all over me. I don't need anything from them but I would definetly appreciate it if they feel like ever repaying me back. All that i put into & now I just felt like I've been walked over & over on. I wouldn't feel this way so much if they exited my life completely but bc their presence still lingers, I feel as if I'm still constantly being used.  Constantly giving them this unconditional love but then I feel as if they are using my love. I just feel weak & pathetic for allowing people to use me so much. I guess I should have just spoke up about it. Maybe I should have formed a thicker skin earlier in life. I know it's in my past & I don't ever have to allow anyone to do that to me again but it still sucks feeling like I wasted so much time, energy, love, & my life on them. I can never change the past so all I can do is just say.... Charity. Lessened learned. 

No one owes you anything.