i wonder if things are slowly falling apart so that my future can slowly fall together. maybe whats happening now is what is suppose to happen. maybe i am suppose to slowly lose everything so i'll be able to gain it all back one day.

the way i see love is not the way i once seen it.
i don't crave for it as much as i once did. i like living this in a relationship/out of a relationship feeling.

there is alot of things i need to change, and that is the way i feel for you. if you would like me to love you more then you should def do something about your douche-ism. its effecting the world, not just me. and i wish you could just see it. i ignore it. but one day its gonna be hard to ignore.

my life has untold secrets. hidden lies. hurtful regrets. blocked memories. and so much more that lips should not speak of and ears should not hear.
but i'm okay with them.

my life isnt perfect. no one ever really is.
i do a lot of messed up things. a lot.
i'm sorry for the people that i have hurt but i can't turn back time and change it

i like where i am at the moment. i may not be in love with the life i am living but content with where i'm at. i'm not searching for true love. it'll find me if it hasnt already.

i know where i'm headed. it may take some time but i'll make it.
i want to let it all go here and head to where i feel like i'll be myself.
i want to start a new life for myself and not live this crazy reckless stupid life.

I'll make it. and no one is going to stop me but God himself.

i'm sorry once again.

i dont want to be all about you when there is nothing to be about.

so i decided i want to move to hawaii. its a dream at the moment but i'm determined to make my dream come true. i dont have much to hold me back and if i'm not gonna make it happen then who will.
we are all walking in our own path. but i realized my friends will always be my friends and the people who care are the ones that are still here. we'll just continue in our own path and this is the path that i want to go.

HAWAII. take me there plz.