it's always a little nerve wrecking when you realized that you're off on your own and becoming independent is no long a choice but a path. you're finally growing up and taking care of numero uno. I'm learning to take care of myself and trying not to depend on other people so much. i know that i tend to walk over certain people because they are so willing to help but i can not longer do that. i have to pull myself away from such selfish living. i need to learn to say no to help but to learn to make it on my own.
I'm very scared at this point in my life because I'm making a deals for myself and i'm not sure which one are right. i'll try to learn from my mistakes, i just hope i don't make to many.

Second day of 2011

01:01:2011
where was I? Downtown Des Moines. Of course right. Where else would I be. I can remember all that I can remember for that night. Of course I roamed off. I always do, but how do I always bring myself to walk away from everyone w/out knowing. idk. but it happens to often.
Woke up 2pm went to sleep at 10pm.

01:02:2011
woke up at 2pm once again.
total of 16hrs of sleep.

i have to do something new and different this year. i have to let things/people go that will pull me down. do things you want to do. don't stop now. you're young.
it was a slow start, but i'm gonna do something different this year.
i wanna change.