i know the world is consuming me. i see it. it's not that i'm not trying but it's so hard.
such foolish thoughts. bc you see that i'm not trying.
i understand that i have a taste of this reckless, self destructive world and i can't pull out. but i really want to try. it might not seem like it with my actions. but my mind wants out. that's a step up from where i was before.
but at times when i hear words that put me down bc you "dont see" that i try makes me want to not try even more.
the devil gots me wrapped around his fingers and he's toying with my life.
if i can only get out of his grip, maybe my anger might subside a bit.