it hurts and it hurts bad. i wish the pain was not so unbearable but it is.
of course she would still love him. but i cant help that. its not my fault or his.
i just needed to know. and now i know that she still loves him

my ex loves me and his ex loves him....what do we do? turn away from eachother and go back?
would that be a good idea. if he thinks so then i have nothing else to fucking say.

she may be a good person, who knows? she may even be better than me. if she is and he decides to go back to her then...goood for him. he should definitely do the best for him. if i'm not it, then okay. go for the best. shoot for the stars. do what you gotta do.

it hurts.
it really does,
i told my friends that if it hurts too much then pull me out.
hit me.
literally hit me.
i'll allow it. if it hurts that bad and i dont leave then just hit me.
pull me the fuck out. i told so many of my friends this and i wonder when they will tell me that he's fucked up and tell me to pull out.
no matter how much i love this kid....i gotta pull out.
i'm good for now. until when?......

my tears are gone but my pain still exist.

put me thru this fire and i'll pull you down to hell.

i'll let you be if you feel that i need to go...but if you asked me to stay....
then i'll fight like a soldier.