there are so many things left unsaid. so many things i wished i could have said. every battle and every fight i have ever fought with you & with him have words that could never come out. they sound so pretty and nice in my head and when it comes to letting it out...there seems to never be enough time or never a perfect moment to let it out.
i wish i can say it all but not now, when i could have back then. i wish i never held back and i'm learning to never hold back what i feel. i'm just going to say it all bc my life is too short to keep it all inside. there is not enough space in myself to keep every little thing bottled inside of me.
my life is changing and so am i.
there are days i feel empty. days i feel like i can't move forward. i go to work and i come home and there is an empty void. nothing to say and nothing to feel.
i wonder if you ever feel that way. if i ever caused you to feel that way then i'm sorry. i'm sorry for the words i said that tore you to pieces and words i dint say that could have cured your pain.

i hope one day we'll all be happy with the path we chose and the life we decided to live. living your life does not mean to let it go by each day but making something of yourself so that we can all be happy with the choices we make. so i'm going to really try to live my life and try to make the best of it.