i'm really tired of this feeling. it seems to never go away. this sadness that sits right next to me, refusing to ever leave. i know one day it will but from this point until then, it seems like forever.
i'm just completely distraught about what happened to us. how you quickly forget about me. how you make me feel so small in my own mind. you took my smile away as you walked out of my life. if i saw this coming, i may have been a little bit more prepared but i was completely blind sighted and i feel like i can't get my vision back. i want to scream and shout at you but that would do no one any good.
in a way, i can't even face it. and maybe if i face it, i would be able to let this sadness go. i dont know why i'm holding on to something i can never obtain. but, i suppose i have this small itty bitty hope that i'm refusing to let go as well. i can't think about the happy times because it'll make me hate it that much more. i know that others have gone thru so much more than i have, but this is my story and they really have no idea what it's like to be in my head.
i laid in bed for 12/13 hrs because i couldnt bring myself to face the world. all you've said were lies and shows your true character, but i can't help but just hope for the best out of you. it just never changes. can you look at yourself in the face and say that you did the right thing. you did the right thing by hurting such a fragile soul.
you took every piece of me that i gave you and destroyed it and handed it back as if were never damaged at all. you took and took and took and never ever gave. not even a little of what i asked...and i dont ask for much but you continue to ignore my cries of pain and anguish. are you that cruel that you would ignore all that i have done and have been to you?
i hurt and you dont care at all.
it's karma, no doubt. it has turned around and realized that i deserve to be treated this way.
just let me know when i have endured enough so that i can stop hurting and move on.

i'm tired of running away from myself to find myself back at the same place. i can't escape it. that's what is so unfair about this all.

you made me feel like i was never enough. and i can't bring myself to show others that i am enough because of it. you've destroyed who i became. and now my path is stalled.

i want it to all end and act as if we never existed. if only that could be.