this is nice. having someone to hold me at night. waking up to arms around me. it's the comfort i feel that i'm already so use to. it's so much harder to leave when this happens. so harder to get up and work, knowing that all i'll be thinking about is being back in his arms. like i said, its a nice feeling. i haven't had it for so long. not this comfortable state. everything before left a void in my soul, but this fills it. he makes me happy. i've been missing this happy feeling. i've been yearning for it for so long and having it makes the wait worth it. it happened so suddenly. but everything happens all so suddenly for me. no time to waste. no time to save. just went for it. best move i ever made this year.
i know what i'm getting myself into. i know i have to leave when time comes, but until then i just want to hold on to it. i'm not sure where it will end, maybe it wont. maybe we'll fight a little harder when it happens. but right now, at this moment, he makes me happy. happier than i have been for a really long time. he makes me better. hopefully.... i do the same for him.
balance.