I vented to my cousin. I needed to hear what she needed to say. I always have this feeling like everyone is always trying to impress one another. I shouldn't have this need to impress all my friends. I find that I prefer people who accept how I am and who i actually am. I'm not gonna sit here and say what you need me to say.
I guess what I'm realizing is that I'm getting too old for this feeling. I shouldn't neec to ask to be cared about. If you were truly my friend you would have know that when I choose you to be my friend, I expect you to see me as someone who will not turn on you as a friend. But the moment you make me feel like you turned on me, yes, I can only do what is best for me and that is eliminate it.

This really is a reason why I don't hang out w/ everyone.