ahhh i'm so upset at this world at the moment.
i understand that family is family and you can't get rid of them but why must they be so stressful. i wish my brother was more responsible. why why why must he do the things he do. why can't he try to fix the things he broke. i'm tired of being this middle person trying to send msg back and forth. i'm tired of trying to fix his mess. why can't he just be responsible and help out. i'm not trying to put him down but he's literally tearing my father down. he's broken as it is and i cant help but cry everytime i talk to him. it hurts to hear the things he is going thru. i wish i can take his pain away, i wish none of this happened to him.
i'm really tired of bearing everyone's pain on my shoulder. i understand they hurt but i'm carrying allllll their pain on my shoulders. i'm falling apart and i dont know what to do.