it's easier to believe what you want to hear. you tell yourself you're okay so that the world doesnt see your pain. why should they? they can't fix who you are, they can't take away the pain. all they can do is feel your pain. you dont want them to feel that, so you hide. you hide it all. you say nothing. you feel nothing in front of them. you smile and laugh and you tell them you're happy. you're happy for them, you're happy for yourself, and you're happy with the world. in reality, you have no where to go.
you're stuck in a box. every way you turn its blocked off.
i'm happy but i'm not. i'm happy where i stand, but i'm not happy with what's happening.